Late Confession

I have no idea about what i'm going to write down at this post.
I'm totally... alone? Not really. Maybe its more like, i'm totally suffered.
They said, teenager is a phase with much of shitty problems. It can be a ridiculous one, a funny one, an angry one, a happy one, an awkward one, and of course... the sad one. But one thing for sure, all of them must be a surprising one.

Well, unfortunately, I'm about on my way to passing the sad one. *exhales
And most of the sad one that teenager probably have is about love.
LOL. Laughed it up. Maybe it seems so naive if its about love. This 4 words exactly have their own perception depend on who's talking and thinking. But for me, it have the same meaning like... hurt?

When it came. It came with so many unpredictable ways. It could be a joyful one, a sad one, or maybe... We even dont realize it already came? I told you, it seems so naive.
And mine actually had their own ways. Each love brought me a very different person, from one to another. And each of them definitely brought a very different story.
The last one which i had... actually brought more happiness than the sadness. But once again, nothing last forever. Even the love that i thought might be forever.

Today 'we' had confession. Call it as late confessions.
I had it on the time when i actually already used to be without 'someone' around me. I had it on the time when i actually already buried the past under the shallow.
I had it on the time when i actually already had no hopes at all.
And I had it on the time when i actually already said: its over...
And when i realized, i know, the things changed and none of them gonna be the same. Not the place, not the time, not the moment, not the promise, not the person, not even... the love itself.

And I'm here, finally wrote the post especially for the love matter which i tried to hide behind. It wasn't easy, but somehow after that 'late confession', it made this easier. 1000 times easier than ever...
The last is I'm not struggling anymore,I'm not suffer too, I'm just about having my victory. And i feel sooooooooooooo much relief :')