Progress in the process

Hey guys! I'm back to the line! After this sucks internet connection on my laptop, now I'm trying to post a new entry. Feel free to read :)

Yesterday in Saturday is just like another ordinary day for me. Nothing special except I still had to came to my school. Really, i wish I'm anywhere in the school which have holiday in Saturday. Huff
Sucks, isnt it? TOTALLY YES -.-

But when in school, i had some bitchy conversation with my mates. Its not about us who being bitchy but its them. Well, i cant tell you the detail about 'them' in this case for the good. But one thing for sure, I HATE BACKSTABBER. THE MOST.
You should bold it and underline it. I mean, how could you act so lovely in the front but so bitchy at the back? Phew. It hurts more than being dumped by boyfriend/girlfriend (at least for me)
And you know what? That BACKSTABBER recently appears their horn in very many unpredictable ways and people.
It freaked me out to found the fact that all the people around me whom i trusted so much and never ever thought would do that actually did that. IN A VERY DEVIL WAY. CAN YOU GIVE ME A REASON?


*can you imagine if someone who you trusted do this to you?

Note for me,you,and everyone: Beware of everyone around you, even your best friend.And for those who being a backstabber, I remind you that KARMA DOES EXIST AND IT FEELS LIKE A BITCH.

At the evening i went to the church. I told you, its been a long time i didn't go there . Hahaha
Well, i came back to the right place after all of the sins that i did in the bad place. And yeah, i met him in that right place. Fiuh
Its not an easy job to act like there's nothing at all anymore and like there's nothing ever happened before. And beside, I told you, I'm not a good pretender.But from what I saw that night i can say that... I HAVE NO CHANCE, EVEN JUST ONCE anymore. (or maybe i already wasted the chances)
Well, just take this as my punishment for wasted such a precious boy like him and I'm still trying for it. Be tough anyway :')

All the process from everything that i've been through showed me something. A progress. Yap, I be wiser than i was, realize or not realize. And i be more mature than i was. But, still, I have to learning and i'm not that mature anyway. But you know what? Realizing you grow up and brought the positive changes along, is the most satisfying thing ever. Believe me :)