It was sweet but it short and it has to ended

I've been into such very up and very down roller coaster lately. Its like when i was at the bottom I wanna gave myself a lil break to breath but i cant have it too long cause I know i've to push myself to going up and continue the 'race'. And when the time is over, i finally arrived at the bottom again BUT with a very exhausted feeling, an absurd face and finally its like i wanna throw up and in the end i can have my breath back and i can gladly say " THANKS GOD! ITS OVER"

The illustration above is my few description about how life treat me these days. Its revolving around and it always been like this. Everyday is like a new day for me to wait and see where will the 'roller coaster' bring me to? will it be the same up and down ? or where? No one knows. Not even me myself.

Read this entry just make me realize it more. That in this crazy world, almost all of us actually having same problems about love. Its just about the time,person and way which are the differences. But in the end, we're all the same. Ever have and been into a desperate situation caused by love.

It was then that I caught myself subconsciously wishing things were the way I wanted them rather than the way they were meant to be. But then of course, I immediately gave it a second thought and realized what an ABSURD thing that was to be thinking and I scolded myself. Though I rarely intend to, sometimes I wish things had turned out differently… because I can’t help but wonder.

The words above are absolutely my fave part from the link that i gave you before. Its totally irritating to know that you cant have what you want and you cant change the thing that already fated to be that way somehow.

and this one is another wrote that make me like " OH MY GOD. ITS SO ME".

You just can’t stop thinking “things will never be the way they used to be” and that’s what hurts most

So fellas, if you're in the middle of heart aching just like what happened to me, then you've to know... Yes life is a bitch. But its up to us will us let that 'bitch' dumped us and trapped us in the middle of endless disappointment? Or will us showed that 'bitch' we're completely fine after the rough disasters and storm that just happened?

Now i'm sitting on my bed infront of my laptop and wondering "roller coaster, where will you bring me tomorrow?"