Dumped and played

Have you ever feel like being dumped and played? Like, you know you love someone who dont deserve your love but you still love him no matter what. Or like, you know you love someone and he loves you back but his love aren't as big as yours. Have you ever feel that way? If you ask me, i'll answer quickly and say: YES.

Sucks, isn't it? Knowing yourself being dumped and played but you can do nothing but crying and just let all the shits happen to you. Drowning your self into a thought like: its okay. I love him. and surely he loves me. And i'll do everything for him. But in the end,you know, you're lying to your self.

These past few days, I've been into such a lowest phase of life. It feels like, I'm nothing but a trash. Feels like an idiot. a love slave. and actually... I'm a broken hearted victim. Yes, i just broke up. He dumped me because so many reasons which, at the 1st i thought he really meant it but then i woke my mind up and finally realized, its just the shit which he tried to set up.

Is it karma? Hahahahhaa. i used to do this to my ex in the past (or maybe in such more devilish way). Well, whatever it is, i just dont care. I know I'm in my way to a process. To understand, sometimes you just cant give your trust 100%. And to understand, boys will always be boys. They make you happy but then they'll screwed your life up 5 seconds after it. You know, you never really know the truth. But it doesnt mean every boys are like this. hahahhaa. Of course, there will always good boys out there. Who truly loves you and wont hurt you. And more over, there will always good boys who act like the real man and proves that his love is real and not just another shit.

Out there. Someday. I will find him. The one. The real one. I just havent met him yet. And till the right man in the right time comes, lets just fuck those jerks and be tough. Keep smile! :)