Nowhere

When do you know when someone is serious about you? How do you know? People can lie as much as they want to, dont they? As someone who already been hurt so many times, its kinda hard for me to trust someone. The last time i trust someone, it ended hurtfully for me to realize that I'm being used. I currently in the middle of my rant thoughts. Between expectation and reality. I hate to say that my expectation drives me even stronger than the reality does. I'm afraid to let my self down later on. Cause when I do, i demand more and depend more. I hate it when I become such a pathetic loser who cant stand on her own self. Cause I know. once i let my guard down, the pain will come along.And I'm still not ready yet. I'm still not sure.