All by my self

Well, its 11.10 p.m now. I just got home after went to the lippo. Spent my time with my 'new family' -.-

Actually, i didnt mean to wrote this post. But you know what? I feel so lonely in here. Suddenly, everything that i had before gone in a blink of an eye. Sometimes, i found myself became an over self-defends girl. Whats wrong with me? For God sake, me myself even didnt have any idea about this.

I saw myself growing up like a wild grass in the garden. No one care and useless. Just need to be cut off :(
I really miss my mom when she was sleep here just like it used to be. But again, i have to wake up from that dream. This isnt my family anymore. Its her and i'm not counted in. I dont ask to be counted in, anyway.

So much pain in the heart. None of them out there can understand. Me myself even cant understand. How could they?

I miss you mom :(