Optioned, while prioritizing

People said, dont be with someone who only make you as an option.Problem is, I'm having such a hard time to really notice which people who want me not only as an option, but as a whole. People also said, even a donkey wont fall for twice to the same hole. Problem is I'm falling to the same hole for...3 times. Ha ha. I feel so funny that I want to laugh on my self. How could I'm being such a hopeless pathetic idiot for over and over again. Being fooled around and lied. And what hurt me the most is, all the trust that built trough a very struggle phase... is being broken. I've faced so many disappointment. Not to mention, but most of them came from them who used to be someone close. But now, its been a while and I finally felt the same shit I never thought could happen this fast(again). It makes me wonder, there's something wrong with me. There's must be. Though some people say I'm a victim, I still consider my self as the blame for all the problems. Isnt it funny? Once people get what they want, they'll just let it go as if they never thought about it. And its funnier, to found the fact that people go from loving you madly to nothing at all. You're right, I might be wrong for generalizing people in one common form. But really, I just dont get it no more. What is the point of making excuses? To buy some more times just to make that people being hurt more than she/he already has? Trust is like a glass. Once its broken, you cant fix it the way it was. You might try, but in the end of the day it will still leaves scars. Turns out, my trust was being played. Turns out, I'm just another blame of inconsistency. Turns out, I'm being optioned while I'm prioritizing. Thank you for make me believe the shit you said and you've done back there. Thank you :)